Finishing 21 has made me think a lot about who I am, because its changed who I am. I always thought I knew Jesus pretty well. I realized I that the Jesus I knew was enclosed in the very same box that I had also closed myself in. In this box I had convinced myself that I was totally open to doing whatever it was he wanted me to do and go anywhere that he called me to go. In reality I think the farthest I was willing to go at that time was one of the four corners of that box. I came to 21 prepared to give my ministry resume and my list of reasons why I belonged. I thought the number of times I’ve held a microphone would help to prove my significance. And oh how desperate I have been for significance. I thought I knew what intimacy with Jesus was, but I realized that I have been missing that my whole life. Being at 21 made me realize that I’ve completely missed the point. Life following Jesus isn't about how many times I get asked to speak. Its not about making myself look like I have the majority of my life together. Its not even about pursuing a full time ministry career. Its so much more simple than that. Life following Jesus is simply about Him. Its about the moments when you feel alone only to realize he is there with open arms. It is about obeying his voice and knowing that he loves to speak to you. Its understanding that he loves to just spend time with us and reveal new revelations of who He is. Its knowing that He’s not some abstract philosophical thought, but that he really is exactly who he says he is. Its not boring or dull but full of life and exciting experiences. following Jesus is so much bigger than any box I could have put him in because he never designed me to be in a box. He made me for relationship with him and I cant wait to see what he's going to do with my yes.